As I sat down at my computer after a crushing loss tonight, I heard the fireworks from Disneyland (I live in Anaheim).  I have never heard those fireworks so loud in my entire life.  Maybe it was because the night was so quiet?

I look back on this LONG season, one of great wins, and tragic loses- RIP Nick.  We as fans thought this would be the year that this team, who has persevered through the worst, would win a ring.  But as we all now know, money CAN buy a championship.

I also look back and think "wow, how the hell did we even get this far?".  It is my belief that any other team, with the same crappy start to a season that we had, would have just rolled over and died.  And though today is very upsetting, we should also just be so happy with all that we've accomplished.

We lost a player like Mark Teixeira to free agency, we lost a potential future Cy Young winnner without warning one night, we lost some of our best players to injuries for the majority of the year, yet the depth of the team showed what it could do. So many streaks, not many bad ones.

After a start like that this team managed to prove everybody wrong by clinching the west again, FINALLY beating Boston in the postseason and even with a sweep, and then showing that we could beat a team like the Yankees in two great comeback wins.

And although it was sad to see great Angel beasts like Lackey, Figgins, Vlad, Abreu, and Oliver out there for what could be the last time in an Angel uniform, I still remember all the times I went to bed happy because of their heroics.

I was SO sure that this would be the year, but I have a feeling it was meant to be this way.

This was a season of sadness but a season of awesomness too.  I'm sure Nick is looking down right now and smiling.  Where he is right now he doesn't need a ring dedicated to him.

We will make it through this crushing defeat together as fans. 

I for one, am so proud to have been apart it this year.  And as they say, we will be back next year!

2009, a year to remember!