Unlike most BP content, this appears to be available to all. It's a very good read. Quote from that last night below: "I had a chance to congratulate Nick and pat him on the back when he came out of the game, and up into the clubhouse for treatment. Unfortunately we let the game get away in the final two innings, but Nick had a perfectly appropriate outlook on that as well. My good friend and fellow clubbie Kris later told me what Nick said when we lost the lead. His calm, almost ironic response was emblematic of his laid-back demeanor: "Goddammit… well, that’s baseball.""