Rangers reliever continues to pay tribute to his fallen friend and former teammate (Source: The four letter word) "Nick helped me through a lot, and I still think about him a lot. It was tough. It certainly was. I remember Jerry telling me, 'Hey, you can go to the services if you want. You should go.' I kind of had that feeling where I wanted to go, but I figured if I went, that was the end of my career with the Mets. So I didn't go."